I don't write here very much because my energy is going somewhere else. Work.
Someone told me the other day that when we stop having sex, our energy has to be used somewhere else. My sexless marriage drove me to buy this place and commit twenty years to it. I used to love having sex with as many different people as possible during my teenage years and into my twenties. That happiness ended when I got married and we created two lovely children who are becoming quite remarkable in their own ways. During those early childhood years I started an English classroom in Sendai, Japan. It has been one of the most inspirational and energetic periods of my life so far. The creativity continued for ten years until my children needed a parent to be home after school. I decided to be the man at home, and my English school was at home anyway, so my then wife was pleased. But one day, I saw a German film on YouTube and it scared the hell out of me. Something inside my soul woke up and drove me to get closer to nature. The story goes that I became obsessed to find a place by a river, with lots of sunshine, good land and an onsen. It also had to be within 30 minutes of Sendai. After 8 months of daily action, I found what I was looking for. Heaven was waiting for me. I arrived and a huge force of energy took over. Nothing could stand in my way. Walls were smashed, ceilings collapsed, jungles disappeared and I just kept working, cleaning, picking up garbage and moving forward. That was three years ago. Someone once told me that we start fires and hopefully they'll start to burn with the help of others, and then we go and start another fire. I think that's happening here because I have received a lot of support from people. They have volunteered, given me stuff or paid for a service here. I appreciate those people because they give me the energy to continue. I want to show them something wonderful. I think if I look deep inside myself, I can create something that even I will be amazed.